It's 18th in Japan...

2008-01-17T17:14:45Z

お誕生日おめでとう、太陽くん！

Dear Taiyo,

I wish you have lots of fun in your special day. I've been waiting like crazy to wish you happy birthday so I'm extremely happy to do so now. So, happy 17th birthday once again! :D

I remember when I found out about you. I, of course, got interested in Ya-Ya-yah because of your height. But soon I forgot who was who, even when I went and looked for Ya-Ya-yah videos. The first Ya-Ya-yah video I watched was the Doki doki don ichinensei PV and I instantly fell in love with it for a reason I don't even know myself. You were the one I noticed first. You just stuck out to me. Then I went and looked for more videos, found out about Ya-Ya-yah TV show and was so happy to see more of you. :D Of course I wish they would have given you more attention, especially after you said in an interview that you want the show to last one hour and that you talk quite a lot when recording the show. I got the feeling that Ya-Ya-yah was very important to you. So thank you for getting me interested in it.

You're an interesting guy. You know how to make people smile, but I get the feeling that you also know a lot of things and can be serious. You're hardworking and responsible. You always worked hard in the background hoping to get more chances to prove your talents. :) So, you're very patient person too. And you seem to be very caring person. You seem to care about your friends and not to hurt their feelings. One thing I also like about you is that you don't seem to hide your feelings that well. I think that takes courage. And all of the rumours say that you're not in Horikoshi anymore. But you were a class representative there. My hear went doki-doki when I first found out about that. I was kind of amazed, I admit, but definitely proud of you. And happy. How are you in your new school? Speaking of school, you seem to be very smart too. And also hardworking at school which I admire very much.

As I mentioned, you're funny in a good way. I always enjoy your answers to questions etc the most. I like the fact that you seem to have some kind of leg fetish. XD I mean, you're always mentioning legs when talking about girls. And I got the feeling that you're maybe a little pervy but that's a good thing. ~~Since I'm one too.~~

Thanks to you I learned to like the colours yellow and orange. I didn't quite like them before but now I just want to have yellow clothes and such. I associate those colours to you for obvious reasons. And thanks to you I also learned to like the sun. Your name means sun and I really like that name. It sounds so nice that I sometimes go and say "Taiyo, taiyo, taiyo, taiyo, taiyo..." in my mind. I really like the sound of it. Anyway, I like the sun now. I used to be a person who loved cold climate with dark winter as we usually had those kind of winters here. But now I think I prefer summer and autumn over winter. I know that when I look up to the sun I can feel your smile and warmth you gave to me, even if it's not actually you who I'm watching. But I really think that you're like the sun, just like your name. Your parents definitely did a good job with it.

I don't want to feel sad because it's your birthday. But I can't help the fact that I miss you so much. Whatever you decide to do, I need to learn to support your decisions for now. I still don't want to get used to the fact that I might not see you ever again. ;__; But you'll always be in my heart no matter what.~♥ Because thanks to you again, I learned to start wanting to live again. I still get my depressive moments, though, but now I want to live and experience things. I think it's because of you because you gave me courage to do some things. And I will keep doing the things I want to do from now on too. :D

I wish you luck and success for your life. No matter how selfish I sound/am when I want you to come back and become better than everyone else, I also want that you keep doing the things you want to do and I give you my support for that. :)

All the best and happy birthday!

God I suck at writing those. XD Anyway, yay, it's Taiyo's birthday! Well, it's still 17th here but 18th in Japan so... Let's everyone be happy even for a day, ne? :D My life recently has been very uhm... tiring and I haven't really had that much free time so I couldn't prepare anything better for Taiyo's birthday. :(

I drew a quick sketch at school. Taiyo is so hard to draw! o.o I was actually supposed to draw him all around last year but never succeeded in that. And I don't think that this sketch looks like him that much. At least I tried.

~~The quality is bad but don't let that bother you, ne?~~

Made also some icons. I don't even know why I'm showing them here. XD Anyway, enjoy the Taiyo-ness and feel free to use them all you want.

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And now, caps. :D No idea why, but I suddenly felt like doing so. Warning! Stupid comments ahead.

The infamous moment! :D

So cute! I love Shoon's expression there too. XD

THE shokura. With Shoon again. BUT I SERIOUSLY LOVED THIS EPISODE OF SHOKURA AND TAIYO IN IT!

LOL, I just love this. What I still see there is trees, asses and Koyama with big and red ass. I know they're peaches but I have a pervy mind, you remember?

He makes a good MC. Why didn't they let him do this job? o.o

XD *melts*

The...

moment...

of...

AWESOME! *feels so proud of him*

sweetmilano90 got me into Taisuke and now this is one of my favourite pairings. :D

Koki loves him too.

XD I love the expression on Taiyo's face here. Poor, he looks kinda embarrassed. :(

Sometimes being tall is not a good thing.

But I'm glad that he seemed to enjoy it. :D

Go Taiyo! You're such a big fan of TOKIO. XD

It was so cute that he had to hum the song a bit to get it right.

And of course he knew the song. :D

And Taisuke was so happy about it.

I loved this episode.

And the clothes.

For your viewing pleasure.

♥_♥ *dies*

I was so proud of him when he won the running race!

He's just so perfect! *heart goes doki-doki*

My OTP

They were/are good friends, ne?

The Taiyo -daddy.

Cute! I LOL-ed so hard for this episode. XD

Gah, I need to sop somewhere. ~~But I wouldn't want to. XD~~ Taiyo is awesome! I don't want to go the subject of him leaving the jimusho. So, I won't. We're supposed to be happy now. :D
So far I've noticed that Taiyo would be good:
• model well, it's obvious
• actor
• MC
• dancer yeah, I really like his dance movements and the way he dances. He's tall and that might make him look clumsy but to me he doesn't look at all like that. o.o
• ~~singer~~ ok, ok, I know he's not the best singer out there but I adore his voice. XD But his singing is good enough for me

Enjoy your day Taiyo! And sorry for me sounding so fangirlish here. XD

Taiyo~♥ I won't forget you

2007-12-02T18:43:43Z

Sorry for posting twice today. But this deserves a post of its own. And it's gonna be public because Taiyo needs more love.

I really saw this coming and, as I've said, I was preparing for it but it still hit me so hard. Right now I feel sad, depressed, angry and totally empty. I really waited for him to get more chances. Things were just getting better for him too but then this whole HSJ fiasco happened. Honestly. My Christmas won't be so good this year.

I wish I could just wish him luck for the future but I can't. And I feel bad for that reason. I want to see more of him! Even one picture would be good enough. I really regret the day I became a fan of JE. And someone should have really warned me not to become so emotionally attached to a celebrity who doesn't have even a clue that I'm here and I'm his fan.

I will still continue to support him. I'll make a big birthday post for him and when I finally can watch Ya3 show again, I'll make nice little fangirly rants about them. But now I can't stand any of those. Probably not for a long time.

I don't know the reason for his leaving. Was it because he wanted to focus on his studies? Or because he simply didn't want to be in entertainment business anymore? Or did JE freakin' threw him out? What ever the reason is, I think I understand him. I wouldn't want to be in that kind of business world. And it's better to concentrate on studying than being there. Taiyo is good at school after all, isn't he?

But... I don't want him to go! D: I know I'm so selfish now but I don't want to. And I really wonder how long it's gonna take for me to fully accept this and start listening to Ya-Ya-yah again. I don't really know. Everyday life will be hard for me because I have Taiyo's pictures on my schedule and I need to look at it everyday because I have so poor memory that I can't remember anything without it. ;_;

My head is empty and full of thoughts at the same time. I can't still believe that he isn't there anymore. Just on August we got to enjoy his solo and it was honestly one of the best things that happened to me in this year. Some people say that those shokuras sucked but to me they were the best shokuras I've watched. For real. I enjoyed the attention Taiyo got. He was simply awesome there!

じゃあ...ありがとう、太陽くん。

You really made my life. Simply seeing your smile would make my day and make me feel happier. I'm worried how I can feel happy now because I'm a gloomy person, in general. You could really put a smile on my face anytime.

I must also thank you for giving me courage to create this blog and for me to getting to know the awesome people on my f-list.

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I'm sad that I can't fulfill my dream and see you in person one day.

He was the reason I'm a fan of JE so don't expect me to watch anything JE-related. Bye bye this sucky fandom! I won't miss it, but I'll miss Taiyo for sure.

I'll edit this post when my mind clears up a bit. ;_; And no cuts because I can't stand the thought of those right now.

•SHIROKURO RADIO•

It's 18th in Japan...

Taiyo~♥ I won't forget you